riddle me this

Added Huxley: "I just want to be treated like any other homicidal sociopath."

Hey Hollywood

Finally settled in. Taking a small break from school.. Working on some photography business. Serious business.
Although I do spend most of my time at aladdins, I think 40 hours a week as a server is a lot. I need the money though, but who doesn't? I love 4 blocks from Collingwood and the boys. I don't hang out with anyone anymore though, I kind of like being by myself enjoying the quiet. The lady who lives on the first floor of this house does nail at David Broadway and is a professional vocalist while being a a single independent black mother. She gave me her card. I broke up with someone who is my opposite and not in a good way. I need a person who is not constantly depending on me. Most of my friends are really immature and I think that might be why I stopped hanging out with them. Once a week maybe, but that is it now a days.



save the drama fo yo momma


Is all I really have to say to most of them.


I love foole! It is quite delicious.


(I went on a date)

The 7 & 8 year old girls next door have been listening to livin' la vida loca on repeat for about 4 hours now.

To sum up the events of last night..

 1. Intoxicated heavily
 2. Matt walked in while Klaus was trying to give me a lap dance.
 3. eww weird
 4. Fell asleep on a couch with Josiah
 5. Had metal fist chugging contests with Brittany Taber and Jimmy
 6. Drove home at a quarter to 6. in the am.

worst case scenario, my boyfriend wears girl pants and I can't stop eating pumpkin seeds.

I decided that the one real reason I travel out to BG is to hang out with Brittany. Everybody is just an accessory that comes along with Bg. Katie Midge for example is another plus, but the two of us hanging outside of alcohol and loud music has yet to happen. Anyways, Friday was decent, I went to the Liono show at Howards, I showed up intoxicated after drinking 40oz at Kelly and Eric Nedrows. Might as well say they're already married. Ben Barefoot showed up to the show; He still likes me,and I dont know what to say to him.. ever. Our conversations again are usually alcohol or drug indused.
Saturday night I hung out with Matt [ not from mount blanchard ] We went to go see Pan's Labyrinth, and when we arrived about 436346 little brats were lined up out the door! Of course, that should have been expected, but you know. Then 3 very productive were spent.. well.. being productive! Everybody needs it!

Im 18 Now, it feels no different, and Im still not allowed to stay out passed 2:00 am if im traveling alone. I want to travel to Chicago though to visit Kevin. He will be here the end of this month for some birthdays and things. Perhaps I'll get a chance to see him then.
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Im going to Bg today to meet Matt Keller, he is then going to take me to Mt.Blanchard (town of farms and houses acres away from one another and 20 minutes around Findlay) to his parents house where I am going to meet his parents/grandparents. We will preceed to watch a movie or two, play pool, eat things, and hang out with Mt.B boys. This will all lead to making out. I swear. He will then drive me all the way back to Toledo, because he wants to, even though someone can get me from Bg.



Hi Bre and Brittany. My Lj friends.


Im hung over.

I went to a party at Josiah's house.

End of story is that I have a new found hate for myself.


I hate the over bearing power that feelings control, You'll still do anything for them, no matter how many times they've fucked you over.


Am I wrong?

Im bored in a study hall inside of my fifth hour ceramics class. Damn, Geirke didn't even get me on tech for the first one, how sad. I have my first test tomorrow, Anatomy, Yay! ughhh... haha I have to work today from 5- whenever they let me go home before close. But I dont work Friday or Saterday :] Friday Im going to Bg to hang out with Matt and we are going to see Snakes on a Plane; only because we both feel very compelled as if we have to. Then off to the An Albatross show. Brittanyyyy we need to rendevous.. I cant spell... :( Saterday Im supposed to hang out with Chris, I dont know what I am going to do about those two. But I dont want to think about it right now, Im also doing this thing where I dont answer my phone when Branden calls. eeeek

So some things happened the other night that I dont want to talk about. Only Ryan and Anna know, because they can relate the best. Word son? I saw Kevin today for a little while. I do miss him quite alot.
Carlee,stef,joe,mike,and thomas estep are being hoes. uhmmm... I saw my lovely Brittany last night :] dang what a hottie. I work all the time still. On thursday mornign I leave for Rochester to visit the Rochester Institute of Technology :) Im super excited. I hope their facilities are worth going there for!

I watched Sahara? spelling? at Andrews the other night with Corey. Random?! Yeah I was falling asleep.........



To sum up what my problems are you can sort of guess what you want

ahhhemm ...."Im sore in places I shouldnt be, and &&&&&& said they felt bad. I love laying there with &&&&&& 's arms around me. I feel so comfortable and natural. We dont tell anyone, because it would start a riot. We didnt close our eyes for good until 6:30 the next morning. Staying up to talk and such things. &&&&&& is so right for me, yet so wrong at the same time."

I played ultimate frisbee until 2 am last night, :] it was fun.


omggggzzzz.... everybody thinks Brandon and i have a thing " *pukes*

Jordan has been back for at least a week and we still haven't hung out yet besides for a few minutes where I met him and Brandon at the mall. Hmmph, I work everyday which doesnt leave much room for anything. That's right I dont do anything. My friends anad I are both stubborn too! We don't call eachother resulting in us not hanging out and them getting mad at me?! yeah. hahaha... cool right? How many ttimes do i have to say that I dont call anyone! If you want to talk to me call me! I dont know, that's I find out who really wants to spend time with me. Today Im trying to get off work early to go hang out with Jordan. Tomorrow Dan Smith's friend Ben Asked me to hang out. Ive met him a few times at Dan's apartment and now he has moved to Defiance but still wants to come up here.
Last monday I wasn't hanging out with a boy. I was finishing stuff up for school.
Thanks though!!!
Nobody thought to call me either. :]


How many times in a summer can you see Thomas naked?
I guess we'll find out




::edit::
Brittany I have strawberry cheesecake flavored yogurt. WE need to hang out soooooooooooon. Dannng gurl. Ann Arbor?! wHAT!?

I had a dream about Ryan Valdiviez.. It was weird, and Drew tells me im destined to be in the valdiviez family. Which I dont know about. Apparently Josiah and I are together but I dont know what he thinks is going on. I dont know what's going on either. Spring is approaching quickly and im completely ready for it. My neck hurts though, and I pulled some tendons in my left elbow area.OUCH. Im hanging out with Aaron again thursday or wednesday or maybe both.. im not sure yet.:) Things are alright, I still can't wait for Jordan to come though. I miss that boy so much.


I bought 10 bottles of Vitamin water today :) mmmmm

im melting

A ruminant forest mammal (Okapia johnstoni) of the Congo River basin in Africa, related to the giraffe but smaller and having a short neck, reddish-brown body, creamy white cheeks, and whitish stripes and bands on the legs.

oppsy daisy. :)

life partner.

I get frustrated when the people holding certain roles in my life do not act on the cliche things they should. Do what everyone across the world, upholding the same title as you, is doing.